Thinking can be a dangerous thing

I am been thinking recently about why I live my life the way I do. I know that the path I choose isn't a popular, especially in today's world. Why isn't a Christian lifestyle popular? Why do people live Sundays for the Lord and the rest of the week for themselves? Why isn't every Christian out there in the world setting the world on fire with their love for God? I think it's because most of us have never and will never have that really exciting conversion story that you will always read about, always hear about. It seems that if you haven't had this great experience then you can't really follow in their footsteps and live how the live after their conversion. I think that this is a shame. I've had my conversion experience, but it was nowhere near exciting enough to have published. Heck, I don't even share it with too many people because it is just that boring. I grew up Catholic, I decided to stay Catholic. While boring, it is very important to me. It was a time in my life when I was very uncertain and chose God instead of this world. Now, I am pretty sure that most people out there have had a similar experience to mine, humdrum and not much to share. Why do these things stop us from showing God's love for us to the world? Those really important stories that make it onto the news and get book deals are few and far between. Way more of us change just a small way because of a friend, but we think that it's not important enough for God. Well, it is. I am by no means perfect, and I struggle with living for Him every single day of my life, and, despite my hopes, this will never change. But I am going to challenge myself to remember that my story is just as important as Mother Teresa's or someone similar, at least to God it is. I am going to let my story help me set the world ablaze.

So...It's been awhile.

I'm just not that good at this whole blog thing. Anyways. Since last time, I have moved home to Oklahoma for the summer and I am terribly missing school. I have just been sitting around all summer because I can't get a job. Grr....with the economy bad people who have been working other jobs got laid off and and are now forced to work full-time in the jobs that I am apply for. They have experience, I don't. I would hire them over me too. Mr. President, Where are my jobs you promised me? Anyways...

I'm leaving on a mission trip on Friday and I am sooo excited. This is my 5th year to go, and I love it. My church goes to a camp call Catholic H.E.A.R.T. Workcamp. They are all over the country. You work on people's homes, painting, light repair work, etc. but then you come back and it is basically a giant youth rally. Awesome. The first year we went to Louisville, KY and it changed my faith life. I began to see what it means to live like Jesus lived. I learned that you shouldn't live life asking "What Would Jesus Do" but ask "What Did Jesus Do?" (Maybe I should make my own braclets!) Then we went to Orlando, the Rockford, IL. Last summer we went to New Orleans which I had beeen begging Joe (my youth minister) to go to since Katrina. This was the first year it was open to people under 18, so we packed our bags and went. I was cool becuase since we were helping Cathiolic Charaties with Katrina clean-up you really felt a part of something bigger. My group hung dry-wall in a home and now the woman who lived there is one step closer to being out of a hotel and back in her home. I hope this year God will use me to just make the life of one person just a little bit easier. No big miracles needed, I'm not that kind of girl. "I pray that You will use my life, In whatever way Your name is glorified." Please keep our youth group of Yukon, OK in your prayers and all the campers that particiapte in CHWC.

The Motions

This might hurt
It’s not safe
But I know that I’ve gotta make a change
I don’t care
If I break
At least I’ll be feeling something
‘Cause just ok
Is not enough
Help me fight through the nothingness of life

I don’t wanna go through the motions
I don’t wanna go one more day
Without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don’t wanna spend my whole life asking
What if I had given everything?
Instead of going through the motions

No regrets
Not this time
I’m gonna let my heart defeat my mind
Let Your love
Make me whole
I think I’m finally feeling something

Take me all the way
Take me all the way
Take me all the way


I really want to live my life this way. Too often people sleep walk through their faith, only going through the motions, not living the way they should as Christians. I want Christ to be proud of me, proud of the way I live my life.

Hmm...Not a big fan of that whole love thing.

Boy/Girl non-platonic relationships are so hard. You have to figure out if you really like the person or not. Then you have to figure out if they like you. Then throw in a really good friend who likes the same person and you have my life right now, except I am still on step one. Any advice? I could use some. How do you go from friends to more than friends?

A couple more, please!

Planet Beautiful Brickfish

Seeing Things in Black and White Brickfish

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Best of the Best 2008 Brickfish

I am going to miss 2008

It was actually really good to me. I graduated high school, went to New Orleans and did Katrina clean up, went to Sydney, Australia, saw the Pope, went to World Youth Day, moved 500 miles from home, started college, met amazing people, and made straight A's in my first semester in school. Life was pretty good. I hope 2009 can be just as good, if not better. Here's to you, 2009.